Unsuccessful Undertakings

All teachers have their unique ways of teaching and grading, according to whatever seems best to them. After having lots of teachers and classes, many have very similar approaches to grading and assignments. However, in my English class, we use a system that’s very new to me. We categorize grades into “process” and “product”.

With process and product on my mind, I began to think about the correlation between the two. Generally, we think of the process leading to the product. Now, there are quite a few products, or goals, that I am currently aiming for. The key part is that I’m still aiming for them. For one of these goals in particular, I’m currently in the process phase, where I am preparing to attain these goals.

The discouraging aspect is that I have no assurance that I will be able to attain the product. I’ve been in the process journey for almost a year and I know it will continue for almost half a year more, but after all of this work and effort, I don’t know what will happen.

From a logical perspective, given the circumstances, it’s very unlikely that I’ll achieve my product. This entire undertaking might turn out unsuccessful. My journey would be slightly easier if I knew I would be able to receive at least a portion of this product, but unfortunately, it is all or nothing.

There is no shooting for the moon, with the comfort that I’ll end up among the stars. Instead, will I be shooting for the stars, but ending right where I was initially, just with lots of time and effort wasted? Most likely. Why am I continuing this process? No idea. My fuel to keep going might be from my, possibly misplaced, hope of attaining this noteworthy product.